Thank you.....

This is the second double yolked egg that my girls have provided in as many weeks. I can't help but smile and thank the Lord whenever I see a double yolker.

Why? Well, many years ago, when I learned that I was going to be a mama for the 4th time, and in less than 2 years from the birth of my 3rd baby, I was quite distressed. How could I possibly love and care for another baby? Lord, I don't need another baby. I love this one.(Owen was exactly 1yo when I learned of Miss. Livi) It may seem harsh for a mother to feel that way, but I did. I also had a 10 year old boy, and a six year old girl that I was trying to home educate, my husband had just been medically retired from 9 years of military service and was working three jobs to make ends meet. This wasn't a good time, in my opinion, to add another Kauahi to the mix. But what do I know? :O)

As the time drew nearer to the birth of my Olivia Grace, I began to feel God's peace and grace (the meaning of Livi's name) surrounding me. I knew the Lord would provide and that I would be able to manage my home and teach the older children, by His grace. But I still wasn't convinced I could love two babies at once. I only had 6 weeks until the due date and the fear was mounting. I hadn't shared with anyone how I was feeling. How could I possibly say that I didn't think I'd love my new baby? That sounds awful....but that was the fear I had.

I began to share with my mom, who then prayed with me, and tried to show me that it would all work out fine. She prayed for my peace of mind and that I would see that two just meant double.

Sometime shortly after that conversation and prayer time with my ma two funny things happened to me. The first was at a Chinese food restaurant. After we all had eaten and it was time to pay the bill, the fortune cookies were brought and Scott passed one to each of us. I don't usually eat the fortune cookie, just have never cared for them. But I was nearly nine months along and ate everyting that went past my nose. When I opened the cookie it had two fortunes in it. That was a pleasant surprise, I've never had that happen before, but I didn't give it another thought. I just gobbled up my cookie and went home.

The next day or so while making a batch of cookies, I got a double yolker! How exciting! I'd never gotten a double yolked egg before and had only seen one once when I was a child. I began to muse on the double fortune and the double yolk and what my mother had said about two babies being a double blessing. I began to cry and thank the Lord, for I knew he would double my strentgh, my peace, and my joy. The fear was gone. And to this day the double yolked egg reminds me of God's goodness, His peace and grace.

I love my two O'babies! And what a blessing they have been. Not just to me, but to each other!